Driving in circles

Today has been a 'bad' day...in terms of getting stuff done.

In terms of enjoying life, it's been a good day - I watched a movie, walked the dog, had a nice shower, talked to a friend, had a long lunch, wrote a little bit, answered some e-mails, looked up some flights, played the cashflow game...and so on.

Sometimes you don't have to drive to get somewhere. Sometimes you can just drive for the love of driving. That's success too.

Remember to enjoy the journey on the way to your destination.

Love

Donna.x

Too much Drive, too little Care

My poor little bulldozer is shattered today. I have been driving her hard for months and months...and the strain is starting to tell. It's time to pause, regroup, relax and take a bit of care of that bulldozer, so she can keep going for miles and miles. I don't want her breaking down!

Are you driving too hard?

Love

Donna.x

Idling Along

It's been a while since my bulldozer 'spoke'. Over the past 3 months or so, my bulldozer has been idling along. Moving, but not with purpose. Moving, but not consciously. Moving.

You know when sometimes you don't even realise what's changed because it's not enormously dramatic and life changing? But here I am, months along the line, having moved unconsciously. It's great that my bulldozer knows me so well that she just keeps moving, even when I am not really 'at the controls'.

And now I'm starting to wake up and see where I'm driving again, ready to become a conscious driver...and noticing that life moved along quite nicely without my interference. I wonder if I could become conscious and be a gentle driver of my bulldozer...or will I go back to my aggressive driving style and keep crashing again?

Perhaps gentler would be quicker?

Love

Donna.x

Notice the progress

It's been a while since I've posted about my bulldozer progress, and in that time, largely my bulldozer has been pootling along cheerfully. I haven't reached the coast yet, but I have made progress. It's worth remembering that if you keep putting one foot in front of the other (or keep your foot on the bulldozer's accelerator pedal), you will get where you're going. And probably faster than if you try to rush and crash.

Slow and steady wins the race. If I wanted to race to my destination at top speed, I probably wouldn't have chosen the bulldozer!

Love

Donna.x

Does Destination matter?

I've been reading Conversations with God recently. Now, before you switch off at the G word, it makes a lot of sense - this God seems to be a more accessible, friendly, down-to-earth kind of deity. The way I always imagined 'god' should be actually. Anyway, something I have been struggling to get my head round is that it doesn't matter what we do or where we go. I have always believed that I am far more important than that!

What matters, apparently, is the level of connection you have with your true joyful self. All life is designed to reconnect you with who you really are. So from that perspective, it doesn't really matter WHERE you go, but that your journey (or not) is reconnecting you to who you are. It reminds me of the saying that you should have a goal to be a millionaire, not to be a millionaire, but because of what you will learn on the way.

It also reminds me to stop and smell the roses. AND to remain unattached to the outcome. Yes, I have a destination in mind...but if the journey continues in the way it is currently, it won't be the arrival that changes me, but the miles I travel in between. Hmmm...maybe Big G knows what she's on about?!

Are you making the destination more important than the journey? Are you making the journey more important than yourself? Are you making yourself more important than anything?

Love

BD

Crash!

Sometimes it takes something major to get my attention - I'm not one for subtle hints, I prefer straightforward, direct things that are unambiguous. So when I crash the bulldozer into a tree, I konw that something major is trying to get my attention. As I sat there, dazed and confused, I realised I'd been looking in the wrong direction.

I stopped looking to where I was going, and looked instead to where I hadn't been. The only thing this did for me was help me crash! BUT the intention behind it was to 'motivate'. It didn't work, but do I blame myself for having a positive intention for myself? Even if the action was singularly unhelpful? No.

Instead, here is an opportunity to re-educate myself. Keep your eyes on where you're going at all times, or you'll crash into a tree!

Love

BD

Spinning your Wheels

With hindsight, I can see that I spent a lot of time in the last fortnight spinning my wheels. I wasn't getting anywhere, and I thought that if i just pressed hard on the accelerator pedal, I'd move. However...what happens when you do this? You just get nowhere faster! Before putting your pedal to the metal, it's worth investigating why you're not moving.

If the brakes are on, accelerating will still get you nowhere. If you're in the mud, accelerating hard will get you covered in mud and deeper in the shit! If you've hit an obstacle, accelerating may get you past it BUT it's gonna be a bumpy ride (think of the comfort of your ass!).

A couple of minutes investigation could save you hours of frustration! Stop spinning your wheels and look at why you're stuck. Start there.

Love

Donna.x